囈語二三，，

Can I be charming?

What is "charming" thy must define first.

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Can I start writing / reading again?

With a trivial-widely commonly conceived definition of reading & writing,
I ask this question.

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The answer to the above two questions seems to be lying in,
how to get my passion back, not only on mari or photography,
but about the life, MY LIFE. The very LIVING self of mine.

But how could I?
I am still soldout to mari,
who never paid anything back nor intended to make the purchase,
but the purchase is done and I am SOLD.
To mari, and anything she is in and/or possess.





So could I be charming again?
Yet not feeling that exhausted and fake as I speak.
I feel that I am a fake right now,

"Why don't you just die right away you fake asshole?"

I think that is why I still seek for death from time to time.

"Why don't you just DIE?" The voice speaks to me,
through my tongue and teeth and lips.
Silently I did not answer, but seriously considering the suggestion.

I might jump off the roof someday from Warner Village Hsinyi, Taipei,
someday during this goldenhorse film festival.